Happy Easter weekend for those that celebrate this kind of occasion! I'm not religious, but I always have celebrated Easter in my family and it has come to mean different things for me over the years. For me, Easter is a time of rebirth, a time of redoing, transforming, some parts die so that others can have space to be born. I see it outside where I live right now too. I am blessed enough to live in a place that really does have all four seasons, so now that the cold snow is gone, life is exploding all around me.
I just love things that burst and explode! They make me so happy. It's like they have have been sitting under Mother Natures blanket of ice for months and when she finally releases them, gives them a little sun to light the way, they shout with happiness and life. I see it in the tulips coming up in my yard. I hear it in the birds that sing all day and the frogs that echo them all night. I see it on my favorite climbing vine and my ancient lilac tree as they prepare to explode in color and perfume.
My amazing friend Mariah posted "dazzle the shit out of this day" this morning on social media and I thought to myself, "THAT'S IT!!!". Mother Nature is "dazzling the shit" out of every day around here!! I really love Mother Nature (and Mariah too of course!)..... that woman knows how to make a statement.......knows how to correctly use her natural bedazzler........makes me want to find my own and give it another try! It's like her own personal fourth of July around here and it blows my mind!! My heart almost bursts and explodes when I sit and look and ponder it all.
It all makes me feel grateful, and I try to hang on and cultivate anything that stirs gratitude in me, because for me, I know, that THOSE THINGS are what gets me through everything else.
And then there are these daffodils...........
HUH?
OK, so this is going to sound silly, maybe a little crazy and quite possibly ridiculous, but here we go......
I am obsessed right now on whether or not to steal daffodils from my neighbors yard....
SHHHHHHH!!!
See, neither myself or Mother Nature has "dazzled the shit" out of my yard with these beautiful bouquets of sunshine colored blooms. However, there is an amazing burst of bedazzlement on the side of a house that no one really lives at. I mean, it's like a home away from home type place, a "second home"....(by the way......I have lots of thoughts on the "second home" idea...but I digress.....another post...another time).
In any case......I WANT THEM! I want them in my house.....on my table......pretty much any acceptable surface I can find within my own dwelling.....I don't have a "home away from home"....I have this ONE and I think that Mother Nature wants her work to be enjoyed and admired to the fullest! Obviously THOSE PEOPLE don't give a shit.....they just let them hang out on the side of their "second home".....they don't even get to see them because they are never here.....what a waste.......I would be doing them a favor by stealing...uhh....I mean borrowing some. Maybe I can just leave them a note..........
"Dear neighbor people.....I stole all your daffodils because I needed to bedazzle the shit out of my kitchen table and you weren't using them.....thanks for understanding...crazy neighbor lady across the street."....
That would fly right??
Seriously guys.....it is something that has been weighing on me......I actually devised an attack plan last night when I was doing dinner dishes.......like I was going to break in, or steal a car or something. I thought about what time I should go...(probably night...most sinister things happen at night right??).....What I should wear?......( I should wear a mask.....no...no.....because I live DIRECTLY across the street! If someone sees me and I run it won't matter if they can't see my face......I will be going to MY OWN DAMN HOUSE!) Shit!!.......I am no good at this stealing business.......I guess that's another thing to be grateful for.........Dammit......I forgot that pan over there on the stove.....
You get the idea.....the head squirrels are all jacked up on crazy sauce.......over flowers.....
Yep....sounds about right!
So HOW does all of this tie into being so grateful for these displays of rebirth and springtime Mother Nature awesomeness you ask?? How do we go from being in awe to wanting to steal shit??? Yeah....that's what I have been wondering too, and this is what I came up with.
If it's good....if it's beautiful and it makes me feel grateful...I want MORE!
I go from appreciating the bedazzles to wanting to hoard them like some kind of neurotic sparkle monster.....(that's not a new species by the way...sparkle monsters have been around for awhile...or so I am told....)
Point is....I don't think there is anything abnormal or wrong about wanting more of a good thing. BUT.... I am surprised at how quickly I go to the fear of loosing it. So I devise plans to "stash" more.....so I can have it longer, enjoy it longer, stave off the sadness of it's ending. I go from present moment happiness to "oh shit! I have to get some more of this before it's all gone!".
I don't think that's how we are supposed to "dazzle the shit" out of our days.......
I don't think that Mother Nature says "Yep.....I'm going to throw all this beauty down here and then pop some corn and watch these weirdos try and steal it all away from each other"........
I don't think that's how she rolls.
So, then I start to think about how many other things in my life I try to stash.....try to hold tight to......try to covet and hoard......Oh man....I live in 600sqft........hoarding is a dangerous endeavor.....
What about the emotional and mental things I try to hoard??? What resentments do I nurture that only serve to harm me? What ideas do I cling so tightly to that I deprive new ideas any chance of seeding in my brain?
What things do I not let die, in fear that something will never be reborn in it's place?
Easter, in the religious sense, is about one mans death and subsequent rebirth. A mortal who became immortal. A death that equaled eternal life. A lack that then produced abundance. ( I am not a religious scholar, but that's what the story is about to me.)
And I sit here worried about not having enough daffodils......man......I have a looooongggg way to go in this spiritual path business! Pretty sure not steal shit is "What Jesus Would Do"!
So in the end, I have decided that leaving these daffodils will be my first spring time "dazzle the shit" out of my days exercise for this new season.
I will let the equation of more = safety die. I will embrace the fear that comes with knowing that ALL things leave when they are supposed to. I will live in the fact that life of any kind cannot exist without death. Room for things has to be made....and the Universe knows how to do that much better then me.
I will take time to thank Mother Nature and absent neighbor people for giving me and THOSE AROUND ME such a beautiful display of bedazzlement. I will rest in the fact that anything worth having can only be increased through sharing.
I will try my very best to let circumstances, people, ideas, and emotions come and go without fear of loss. Things can have the space they need to bloom, explode and burst without my trying to wrangle hold of them.
And....of course.....I can have a clean conscious by NOT stealing something that isn't mine.....that always feels good!
I hope you all take time this Easter to think about what you can let die in order to make room for some dazzling awesomeness!!!
One Love,
Danielle
P.S. I haven't been giving credit where credit is due to the pictures that are not my own that I sometimes use in these posts. Below are links to where all images in this particular post can be found. Thank you to all the artists that share their work with us!
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